I guess that I lost my need to write? My passion? I really don't know. Whatever it is, I believe it has started to come back.
Things have finally started to settle down in my life. Ex hubby and I recently got remarried. Yes... we got remarried on our original anniversary. Small ceremony after church with Thing 1 and Thing 2, the Preacher, and one of my close friends. We had been back and forth, off and on, ever since we divorced. Finally it just made sense. There is nothing out there more important than your family and your children.
The lessons I learned out in the great big world are so valuable.
You really can't trust many people, when you find ones you can trust... hold them close. I have very few people that have a front row seat to my life now. Doing that alone has made things so much more simple. My best friend is in another state now, which is fine, but I miss seeing him. Just makes our phone conversations and stupid text messages even more special. I have other friends in my life, but not as close as he is. I've kept him around almost 20 years. I had a few friends that I thought I was close to while the hubs and I were split up. Just remember, if someone isn't happy for your happiness.... it's time to let them go.
My husband has my best interest at heart. He honestly loves me and will do anything he can to make me happy. Just this afternoon we danced in the living room listening to Ella Fitzgerald and Louis Armstrong singing Cheek to Cheek. We've made it a point to have what we call "porch sessions" periodically where all we do is listen to music, drink a cold beer or two and dance. Of course this happens once the kids are in bed but there are times we enjoy our little ritual while they play in the yard.
My girls and I have taken up painting and horseback riding. I'm not as good on a horse as they are but Thing 1 will start competing in rodeos soon. I'm very excited for them. They have an awesome coach that cares for them like his own. That means a lot to me. We've painted a few canvass as well. A couple in art class and a few on our own at home. I have so many ideas in my head it is about to explode.
Life seems to moving right along. I finally accepted my age (not really), actually I'm starting to feel it. I don't like it. Ibuprofen and Tramadol have become two of my best friends. I finally have a career I love. It was hard making the change, but I got my foot in the door to a field that I've always been interested in. Things are looking good, and I'm loving every stressful minute of it. I can wear jeans every day too.
Life continues on for everyone. You can't stop and cry over the spilled milk. Keep moving forward but be patient. Things change daily, you have to watch for the signs. They'll tell you the direction you need to go. Pay attention with your heart, don't live with regret.
In honor of returning to the blogging world, I'm going to do my best to revisit the 30 Days of Truth. A task I set myself on back in 2011 and quit somewhere around day 9 haha! Here is the list...
Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.
Day 2: Something you love about yourself.
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like badly.
Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough days. (write a letter.)
Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24: Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
Love, Rosie
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